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Give Yourself Permission…To Shine

Since my hard drive died a few weeks back, I’ve had to transfer all my music to my itunes for my ipod, and in the process, I came across an album I’d had for about a decade.  It’s by an Aussie band called Bachelor Girl, of which, it doesn’t appear that they are still a band, but they’re still good!  Anyways, the song is called “Permission to Shine”, and the lyrics just struck a cord with me:

Hey, what would you say
If I can’t play the hero tonight
Cos lately I’ve been feelin’ like
I can’t get anything right

I’ve been fading into the woodwork again
And I’m feelin’ like I just wanna hide
But guess what
I’m gonna try something just a little bit different this time

I’m gonna give myself permission to shine
I’m gonna shine so bright
Gonna make every head wanna turn
You’re finally gonna see me
Give myself permission to shine
Gonna light up the night
Shine a little of my light on the world

I’ve been crazy
I’ve been holdin’ myself back for so long
But I’ve got so much I can give
Don’t wanna be afraid to be wrong

You know I’m not too good at too many things
But I’ve been gettin’ real good at gettin’ down on myself
But guess what
I’m gonna try to break free from this prison I”ve built

I’m gonna give myself permission to shine
I’m gonna shine so bright
Gonna make every head wanna turn
You’re finally gonna see me
Give myself permission to shine
Gonna light up the night
Shine a little of my light on the world
shine a little of my light on the world
shine a little of my light on the world
shine shine shine

Oh, that’s right
I’m gonna try something just a little bit different this time

I’m gonna give myself permission to shine
I’m gonna shine so bright
Gonna make every head wanna turn
You’re finally gonna see me
Give myself permission to shine
Gonna light up the night
Shine a little of my light on the world

(Give myself permission to shine)
I wanna light up the night
Shine a little of my light on the world

This made me realize that I haven’t been giving myself permission to shine, I feel like I can’t!  When meeting people, I dread the question “what is it you do?”  I feel like as soon as I suggest unemployment, people automatically assume the worst of me.  I never realized how that question ALWAYS comes up in conversation, as if it automatically defines who you are as a person.  I seriously make a conscious effort to avoid asking that question, because I don’t want to be asked it.  I know I’m a great person, and really try not to let people influence my self-confidence, but it does!  I’ve apparently been giving permission to feel inferior, and that’s certainly not how I want to be, but when your life is NOWHERE near the course you thought it would take, it’s so hard not to be discouraged! I think the song is a great reminder that NO ONE determines the way we feel about ourselves, but us!

Do you give yourself permission to shine? If not, what’s holding you back?

Just random things about me you may be interested in knowing:

  • My parents originally wanted to name me Katie, however, Christina had a better ring with my middle name, Eba
  • I was born with a congenital hip disorder. That, or the doctor had to dislocate my hip during birth, but either way, it caused me to have to have a pin put in my hip, a few surgeries and full body casts, physical therapy (I had to learn to walk all over again before kindergarten) and a lot of pain.
  • I have been diagnosed with “grossly abnormal” feet! My feet are soooooo wide, I am doomed to tennis shoes FOREVER, and have such difficulty finding shoes anyhow, I wear Men’s 8.5 6E, certifiably wide ass shoes!!!! Unfortunately, my feet are prone to fractures, as a result of congenital hip disorder. I’ve had to have removable casts on both feet, at different times.
  • I tend to stick my foot in my mouth all too often. I have a knack for saying TOO MUCH!!!
  • I truly believe I HATE science and math because I didn’t grow up playing an instrument. I’ve always wanted to play the piano
  • I LOVE black olives, but HATE green olives!!!!
  • I cry when I get the hiccups!!! I always have, and the more I hold back, the more the tears come.
  • My first concert was in 1998, the Backstreet Boys. I was a HUGE fan, and thought Nick Carter and I would live happily ever after. After Paris Hilton, unfortunately, he’s damaged goods!!!
  • I once went to school with a head full of curlers.  It was a psychology experiment, exploring deviation from the norm.  We all had to do something outside of our comfort zones, and my grandmother came up with the idea.  The bus driver looked at me strangely, and the hall monitor said “I hate to tell ya, but I think you forgot to take out your curlers this morning.”  I just chuckled a little and went on with my day.  I wanted to see how people would react at Kroger, but my mother wouldn’t let me! 😦  I got an A on the assignment, which was most important.

This Girl Rocks!!!!

Rebecca Frederick, a friend of mine, from Truelife Church, is amazing, and I thought I’d introduce y’all to her!!! Here’s a couple of songs she sang last Friday @ the Frisky Berry, in Franklin:

She sings Christian and Country Music, and just has an amazing voice!!! She sings every Sunday (unless special circumstances) @ Truelife Church!


I got this in my email awhile back…thought it was cute!

Living on Earth is expensive,
but it does include a free trip
around the sun every year.

How long a minute is
depends on what side of the
bathroom door you’re on.

Birthdays are good for you;
the more you have,
the longer you live.

Happiness comes through doors you
didn’t even know you left open.

Ever notice that the people who are late
are often much jollier
than the people who have to wait for them?

Most of us go to our grave
with our music still inside of us.

If Wal-Mart is lowering prices every day,
how come nothing is free yet?

You may be only one person in the world,
but you may also be the world to one person.

Some mistakes are too much fun
to only make once.

Don’t cry because it’s over;
smile because it happened.

We could learn a lot from crayons:
some are sharp, some are pretty,
some are dull, some have weird names,
and all are different colors….but
they all exist very nicely in the same box.

A truly happy person is one who
can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

Have an awesome day, and
know that someone
who thinks you’re great
has thought about you today!..

“And that person was me.”…..
Please don’t keep this message
to yourself…..send it to those
who mean so much to you…. “NOW”..

Working for God on earth does not pay much,

but His Retirement plan is out of this world.

The other day, I heard on the radio how the Two Rivers Church wants to “purge” members from the church because they sued the church over the church not allowing them access to the financial records. Now, I’m wondering why the church, or any church for that matter, has any right to say who can and cannot worship GOD in their house of God! Isn’t God the one who graced everyone with all that they have? I, personally, wouldn’t return to a church if I were in that situation, I mean, just the tension from fellow congregation members would be enough to make me feel awkward, but from the pastor too…Not an ideal situation to me.

I, actually, was banned from a church (West Meade Fellowship) a few months ago, because apparently the choir director can’t take constructive criticism. All I said was the music seemed a little slower than I had remembered. Just some background, I had attended this church for awhile, but once the pastor resigned, and started up another church, I went there (he keeps me awake during the sermons, pretty important I think!) and returned to that church to see about some money the church owes me pertaining to a missions trip we were supposed to take. I reserved the rooms, we weren’t able to go, and the hotel charged my card still, even after I begged and pleaded for a refund. Well, the day after I went to church, I received an message from the main choir singer on my myspace:

I have a lot that I would like to say but I’m going to condense it for the sake of time. I was very disappointed to hear of your comments to Kathy yesterday. Whether you like or hate the music at West Meade really is immaterial, your comments were classless and evil. How can you call yourself a Christian, then sit through a sermon in God’s house plotting your revenge against another believer like that? For your own benefit, you should take a long look at yourself. As a result of your actions, if you ever return to West Meade for any reason other than to apologize to Kathy and/or to appropriately worship, you will immediately be escorted off the property. As for your request for reimbursement – YOU rented the room in YOUR name, which means YOU are responsible to cancel YOUR reservation. YOU failed to do so and the church is in no way responsible for YOUR negligence. If you disagree, please feel free to hire an attorney to further pursue the matter.
Kevin Mills

I, for one, only said the music was slow, I didn’t say it was down right horrible, but it just amazes me how some people react!!! I’m one who, and I understand now that some people may not be, would rather be told something is a little off. Maybe I don’t notice or realize something about myself or what I’m doing, so I’d appreciate some feedback, so long as it’s in a helpful tone. I felt I was trying to help, not out to be evil and mean spirited, I really do have the best of intentions, unfortunately the people involved missed the boat on that one!

I did apologize to the choir director, turns out she was just having a really horrible day, and apparently, in her emotional state, it just got to her. I understood, we all have those days, however, I don’t understand Mr. Mills’ comments. What’s funny is my friend says her 4-year-old daughter plays church better than half the people at West Meade, and I fully agree!!!! Not that all the people there are bad, don’t get me wrong, there are some good people, I just thought people would be the most understanding in a church environment!!!!

Church is supposed to be where we all come together to worship GOD, and regardless of what we do, if we repent our sins, He will forgive us. Just my 2 cents on church!

Oh, I do love my church now, it’s small, we’re growing, but we’re all there for the right reason, to get right with our awesome GOD!!!!